November 12, 2009

Today I feel down in the dumps. Dejected and frustrated. As I mentioned in my last blog I've been having stomach trouble for the past month. The truth is, I've been having stomach trouble for the past several years. Like 10. Or longer. Anyway, after years and years of tests and being told it's all in my head, today I sort-of got a diagnosis. IBS...Irritable bowel syndrome. And possibly gall stones. And probably Celiac. Did you see that there are a couple of ANDs in there? It just seems so overwhelming and hopeless.

I know this is dumb to feel this way. I should be happy. Grateful that it's not life threatening or debilitating. I have a good friend and also an aunt battling cancer. One of my friends has MS, another is HIV positive. And yet another friend has some rare neurological disorder that will eventually result in the amputation of her hands and feet.

MY problems can all be controlled by making changes to my diet. There's the frustrating part is a sampling of what I need to cut out of my diet: Wheat (including white flour...which is in EVERYTHING...just in case you didn't know), Chocolate (which runs through my veins), fatty and fried foods (hamburgers. AND french fries..horrors!), raw veggies such as salads, broccoli, cauliflower, apples. (Ok, truth be told those things I don't mind cutting out!).

I know this is not a death sentence. I need to lose weight anyway. Lots of weight. And I did cut out chocolate for a year in high school. That was a hard year. But I know that if I do these things I will feel better. That my life will be easier. That I will have more energy and better moods. But the thought of giving up cookies makes me want to cry. Big FAT cookie tears.


  1. Oh girl, I am sorry to read all that. I can't believe you have to give all that up. I would be bummed out too. Thanks for stopping by and entering my giveaway. Feel better!

  2. I just ate 4 cookies for you. I'm sorry about that diagnosis, it's not super fun. But feeling better will be a great thing. I will join your health kick with you. I know we keep saying this, but I'm in & have your back! Love you!

  3. Oh man! So what can you eat still? - dairy and meat? I'm so sorry to hear that. You have every right to feel down in the dumps and should not even apologize for complaining! I hope that this will work to help you get feeling better.

  4. what great news!! you found an answer to a problem that has been plagueing you for 10 years. And you found the solution too! you should consider yourself lucky, now take the special qualities that I know you to possess and use your willpower to help others defeat the same diagnosis. power in numbers

  5. Hey Stacy,

    Thanks for stopping by and leaving a comment! I feel for you. I'm (allergically) sensitive to grains, so I avoid wheat and corn (I avoid them most days, but do have them occasionally). At first, I found it very difficult (and depressing) to avoid wheat/corn, but I'm used to it now. It can be tricky when eating out, but if you cook at home, there are so many alternatives available today, it's actually not that hard (ex: my wife just made an apple pie with a gluten-free/wheat-free crust and it was delicious).

    Good luck!

    P.S. Can you have gluten-free cookies? Oatmeal cookies?


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